Update: Concussion

Post-concussion syndrome is back and hasn't faded since Sunday so I won't be able to paint anything or write much for the foreseeable future. I'll start posting again in a couple weeks or a month, hopefully.

Concussions are Serious Business

I couldn’t paint on the ipad (or even read books!) for 3 months, on the desktop for 6+ months, and couldn’t write essays/fiction for 9+ months. A week ago, I still got an unexpected “aftershock” from just a bit more screen-time than normal, though it resolved within a day. I’d heard that even very innocuous-sounding head injuries are more derailing than we commonly imagine, but it was still revelatory to experience the whole bouquet of side-effects myself, from limited speech, to flashes of impotent anger at being unable to express myself, to the existential dread that comes from lying in bed for weeks unable to even listen to music. And that’s, you know, not including the nausea, dizziness, and pain.

Been taking it easy since regaining my faculties. Mostly making studies, taking notes, and writing lectures for Patreon… at a steady, perhaps even sprawling, pace.

Thinking of coming back, backfilling with some of my sketchbook pages from the past few months, and using this as both a main blog and a place to post daily sketches, as a means to… pursue slowness, feel? Carve out a space for self where I set the tone, pace, and cultural values.

He is still… Only Human.

The past couple of days have been a lot of, “So what if I’ve got a cold, I can power through! I want to finish this piece before the new moon! Bc symbolism. And stuff.” And then last night I dropped a huge ass ceramic clock edgewise onto my head, giving myself a panic attack about hemorrhages… so I’m in bed. Resting. Ah, well. Symbolism is nice and so are completed projects, but being in touch with reality is probably better.