Been making big overhauls on all my favorite paintings, making them bigger, more detailed, more colorful, finally able to synthesize more of what I learned from Slawek this spring - I learned a lot and it was just impossible for me to really keep up with painting at that caliber immediately after. I had to digest and adapt first, especially since I was still warring inside between what I’d learned and what I was “used to” doing. It takes time to even just adapt to new tools/brushes, and new tools/brushes had become necessary for me during the course to paint faster - my previous methods were just too slow to create the amount of work necessary for a more detailed painting. That’s on top of adjusting to new habits, new knowledge, and new ways of looking at a draft.
Anyway, after months of trying to apply yoga, meditation, workouts, and nutrition to my depressive state to improve it, what ultimately worked best was setting up a rigorous system of automated timers and daily alarms that delineate “work time” and separate it from “rest time” without any room for negotiation. ADHD management requires… inventiveness and finesse.
